Lost myself?

I have always known that the person you go into college is not the same one that will walk out at the end. Yet now as I near the end, I feel myself no where near where I once started. I feel like I lost part of myself by coming out to Georgetown. I wonder where I left behind my punk music and all the things that I used to love doing? I know that I am maturing and changing, but sometimes I wonder if this change is even good change?! Maybe all I want is just to be able to go to a show in Hollywood, go into that pit and not worry about anything else. The last time I even had a blast at a show as in Madrid when I saw Bad Religion. I feel like I have lost myself. The other day I finally bought a pair of Chucks.....I can't remember the last time I bought a pair of Chucks?! Or even wore Vans....I definitely traded my comfy old Vans for sometimes an uncomfy pair of flats or heels. Yes, i do enjoy wearing flats and heels, I just don't know how I got to the point where I no longer thought of punk music. Now I find myself thinking about the current music trends, which by the way aren't that great....yet I still love them. Maybe if I go back home to LA all will go back to the way it was. Or maybe some of it will at least. 

Lately I just haven't been feeling like myself. Its frustrating and making me upset.