Tuesday, December 30, 2008
The Wonders of Life
Saturday, December 27, 2008
Part Deux: Journey to the Roots
As much as I'd like to spend more time in Mexico I don't think I could it as a native. I think this is where my conflict of am I "Mexican" comes from. I want to travel and see the whole country for myself. I'd like to see it from a literary point of view, or even an anthropological point of view. Maybe I'm not a "Mexican" maybe I'm a Latina. Today as I stood in the plaza (the public square) I pondered my identity as I took pictures of the church and plaza. Maybe I'm not Mexcian. Maybe I'm more of a Latina. I have been rejecting my identity as a Latina because I keep arguing that I am Mexican because both of my parents are Mexican. However my education and experiences proves otherwise. Perhaps me being a Latina is a good thing. I think it means that I embrace all of Latin America and everything that it encompasses. I often feel that through my educational experience both abroad and at Georgetown has shaped me to understand what all the peoples of Latin America experience both good and bad. The other night as I strolled through the plaza with my mom and extended family members we came across a stand that was selling these beautiful hand knit sweaters that are typical of the indigenous tribes of southern Mexico. Then I hear a female voice speak in an Indigenous language from the back of the stand. It was a lovely sensation to hear her voice travel through the air. Almost an exhilaration to hear her. I've only read about it and studied it in my classes, but now to get to hear first hand, it was a beautiful experience. I only wish I knew what Indigenous language she spoke, but I'm pretty sure that the woman also speaks Spanish. I saw her again today in the plaza as I was there eating ice cream with my cousins. I am really curious about her heritage. Only if I can get the courage to walk up to her and ask her about her indigenous roots. I really want to know more about her life. I'm sure its filled with all these lovely images as well with the ugly.
I don't know everything that is Mexico but I do have a good idea of what it means to live, breathe and experience Latin America. Maybe I'm not Mexican. Perhaps I am Mexican by descent and Latin American by choice. I am proud to be Mexican and be part of a beautiful culture. I know I fill in happily that little circle on forms that says "hispanic/Mexican/Latino" there's something in identifying myself as part of this culture that makes me happy. I know that I am different, yes I am a minority but I wouldn't have it any other way. Its taught me to appreciate life and everything in it. Its also taught me to count my blessings, love my family and friends and work hard to achieve all that may be. I may not be a legacy but I hope to one day to establish my own family and start my own legacy. The legacy that my progeny will be successful and attend the best universities and schools in the United States. Some may view legacies as a bad thing but I see it as a good thing. Legacy makes you rise to the expectations and to continue to work hard because those that came before you have worked hard and achieved so much. Being a legacy, therefore forces you to continue to work hard and to surpass the achievements of those that have come before you. Or it can also be argued that I am myself a first generation legacy but surpassing my parents and their life achievements. Maybe now its just up to me to make sure that my progeny continue the legacy tradition and keep on striving for the future. No longer is it survival in our harsh, cruel world, but it'll be "thrival" if that makes any sense. You don't survive as a legacy but you thrive for the best. If there is any thing I have learned from Mr. H these past few weeks it has been this, we must thrive, no longer is it a question of survival.
In conclusion, I am a Latina and Mexican. I am also a first generation legacy that has a thirst for thrival not to simply survive and get by. Or maybe I am just me that has been forced to associate herself with a particular ethnic group or nationality. Can this be the journey that maybe I had to embark on when I entered college? Or is this the beginning of a life journey that I just realized that I've been on?
Tuesday, December 23, 2008
Grades
A Survey Literature Spanish
A Latin American Contemporary Short Stories
B Spanish Linguistics
a freaking B!?!? I am very ticked off by that B, linguistics was a joke and I get a B, I mean a B!?! ugh...not what I expected.
What does it mean to be "Mexican"?
From about the 1870s until the mid 1900s, in Latin American there existed two words that referenced someone who was above their culture, specially one who associated themselves with Europe. These two terms were: "afrancesado" and "galicismo mental", both refer to someone who is from Latin America but somehow does not "mentally" fall into the category of thinking like a latin american. I feel that somehow I fall into both of these words. It wasn't until I left for college and started to take Spanish courses at Georgetown that I realized the true importance of my culture, maybe that's why you leave for college to realize your true self. Point being here that it really wasn't until I was in Spain and Europe that I grasped my own cultural identity and it took in deeply. Now as I find myself back in Mexico after almost four years of being away I find myself contemplating what it means to be "Mexican." Many of the Latin American writers left their home country to visit the US or Europe, or both, then returned to their respective country to continue writing. However it was on their voyages that each writer realized the importance of their culture and country. I feel often times that somehow I emulated one of their voyages in going to Spain to study. Now I find myself
My mother is from a small town in Jalisco, Mexico known as Ahualulco de Mercado. Actually I think now its becoming a small city because its quickly becoming populated and urbanized. The way I dress, speak and act does not reflect any customs held here in Mexico. If anything I think it reflects the bourgeios part of Mexican society. Personally I don't find wearing heavy makeup attractive, but of course we are all different and unique, some love it, I don't, which is perfectly fine. However, I find myself feeling like an outcast because yesterday as I went out for dinner with my family that I was clearly not from "here" and I was from another strata of Mexican society. Oddly enough, part of that strata that is almost nonexistent here: the middle class. Back to the point in hand: the way I dress is not "urban" by any means and more preppy and refined, probably has to do with the fact that I attend Georgetown. (Somehow this rubbed off on my ways of dressing.) I really do wish I could be accepted as a Mexican but I'm not and probably won't ever be. Also the biggest indicator that I'm not from these parts and that I don't speak colloquial dialect of Mexican Spanish is that I keep using phrases and idioms that are only pertinent to Spain. I try not to, but somehow its been ingrained into my head. So I say frequently, "vale," "movil," and "venga". Instead of "celular," "okay," and "andale."
Even as we went into Guadalajara today I still felt out of place. I still felt an outsider. My uncle took me today to the Cathedral, which is gorgeous! I loved being able to see the Cathedral for myself and analyze it with my eyes and hands, versus learning about it in my art history class. He also took me to El Teatro Degollado which was edified in about the mid 1800s. It is a gorgeous theatre. We then proceeded to find these really cool looking chairs by a government building. We ended the day with some window shopping at San Juan de Dios, which is this huge market where you can buy anything from food, vegetables, to shoes to artesanias to even animals. I hope to go back by the weeks end because I saw a few things I want to purchase to take back as gifts.
Maybe I won't ever be "Mexican" enough or just "Mexican" maybe I'm supposed to be "Mexican American". I really don't like to label myself but it seems as if in our world we have this urgency to label who we are in order to categorize and organize ourselves better. Let me attempt to label myself: woman, 21 year old, college student, Latina, Mexican, American, feminist, runner, bibliophile, daughter, sister, library worker.....and the list goes on. I'm sure I'm missing a label or two in here somewhere, but no matter how I try to look at myself I will always be labeled by one person one way and another way by myself.
So what then does it mean to be "Mexican"? I still don't understand what it would take for me to be called a true "Mexican." Or will I never be called "Mexican" because I was born in the US and don't know all the customs that make a Mexican a Mexican. Even though I feel as if I do everything that is Mexican. I mean I am Catholic, I don't mind being a domestic, or is it the fact that I have studied and read about Mexico from an outside perspective? Is this what makes me not a Mexican? I guess this will always be a paradigm of mine, will I ever be Mexican enough for all? I Know some will be like oh there goes that Mexican and to others I won't ever be Mexican enough. Maybe the question I should really be asking is do I think I'm Mexican enough? Because if that is the correct question I should be asking myself, then yes I believe I am Mexican enough.
Saturday, December 20, 2008
Made it!
Anywho....it feels great to be back. I have been eating non stop since arriving here. I swear all that picky eating is going to go down the drain here!!! hehe. FOr example yesterday, I have huevo con chorizo, a quesadillo, countless tortillas and oj for breakfast. Chorizo is a type of spicy sausage, that I ABSOLUTELY LOVE!!! Then for dinner I have a huge bowl of pozole (type of soup), tostada and whatever my little sister didn´t finish. hehehe. yeah i know im a fatty. Also it has begun to get the looks that say: "she´s from the North (the US)" and the infamous (AND I DISLIKE BEING OBJECTIFIED THIS WAY) whistles as I walk alongside my mother. Ugh....it really does bother me. I´m not sure I can do much about this at all actually.
I cant wait to go to Guadalajara on Monday because means that:
1. buy books
2. buy fabric and sewing materials
3. buy clothes
4. visit family
5. eat some more good food
Friday, December 19, 2008
AN hour and 20 minutes
Thursday, December 18, 2008
Only 37 hours and then I'm out, again!
I still have yet to start my Spanish paper, yeah I know I'm bad. But I'll get it done today!! I have no choice but to finish it today. Its an easy paper though. I'll eat some breakfast bust out Frida and write! Just write for 5 pages and be done. This class is an easy A. I mean I think my lowest grade in this class has been an 85. All other assignments have been a 90 and above. I also got an A- on my Spanish literature paper in which I had to analyze a poem of my choice. I mean what gives?! An A-?! As Mr. H said, A minuses are like a slap in the face. They are, they really are. Its like she wrote an amazing comment that I had done a great job at capturing the essence of the poem, especially since it is ONE of the HARDEST poems in Trilce. Whatever, I got my A in that class too.
I can't believe in about 15 hours I will be on another flight down south. Woot! Warmth! Yes, warmth! I was sad to discover that LA was cold and chilly like DC. I can't wait to see mom and sister after not seeing them since August. I also can't wait to eat all of my favorite foods. Mom said she'd have my favorite soup ready for me at home (Mexican home) when I got to GDL. Then i'll be spending break studying for my GREs and working on grad school apps. Yay! (NOT!) But I will try to have a good time with the familia and rest up, because next semester is going to be crazy!!!!!!!
Wednesday, December 17, 2008
Reserva 2003
Tuesday, December 16, 2008
Separation anxiety
Monday, December 15, 2008
I laugh way too much for my own good...
/gwa-∂a-la-xá-ra/ /mé-xi-ko/
Sunday, December 14, 2008
¡Mil gracias!
Finals are one big party
Saturday, December 13, 2008
And who said Communism was bad?!
Friday, December 12, 2008
Quero falar portugues um pouco
After 15 weeks of being miserable, I am now reading blogs in portuguese and enjoying it, like really enjoying it. Almost to the point that I wouldn't mind conversing with someone in this romance language. Also, I wouldn't mind going to Brasil and visiting the untourist spots to see o Brasil real.
Compliment of the week/day/night
Sad news
I am here to announce that on December 11th, Bettie Page passed away. She will be deeply missed. She has been my icon, my idol, my favorite 1950s pin up since I was in high school. I even wrote one of my American history papers on her status of being an iconoclast and the sexual revolution. I still can't believe she has passed away. I will definitely not forget her. I just thought of my costume for next year: I will be reincarnated as Bettie Page. She was 85 years old at her passing.
Thursday, December 11, 2008
Twas the night before my CPS Final
3:04 am
Wednesday, December 10, 2008
The best things in life
Tuesday, December 9, 2008
I'm not ready...
Besties
Response to Ashley and continuation of besties
Monday, December 8, 2008
Recap of last weekend of 1st semester senior year
Reasons why I love my best friends
Insomnia much?!
Sunday, December 7, 2008
When things fall together
Thursday, December 4, 2008
Its 5:15 am
Friday, October 17, 2008
Homecoming Tailgate
Tonight is Midnight Madness. Our annual enormous pep rally for the start of the basketball season. I've heard that they've started to hand out wristbands to gain a spot in the gym. I'm not quite sure if I'll get a wristband, because I'll be in class until 5 and they start handing them out at 6:30. I'm pretty sure people will be camped out since early today. Nonetheless I will try. I'm also planning on going to a few games this season.
I've come to realize that I don't want senior year to end. I need it to slow down or even be a 5th year. HEhe. I'm just having such a great time with my friends. Senior year is hectic, I'm probably doing way too much for my own good but I'm okay with it. I figure I'll sleep when I'm dead. : ) Senior year holds so many memories already, and it isn't even over yet. Still have half of this semester to make more memories and enjoy it. I plan on enjoying every second of it, even if it means not sleeping. I'll sleep on my flight home in December. Next month promises to hold many great adventures: 1) I'll be in upstate NY for a weekend for a conference, 2) Atlantic City trip with the girls, 3) Cirque du Soleil, 4) NYC for a weekend. :) I mean it can't get any better than that!
Wednesday, October 15, 2008
Midterms
Sunday, October 5, 2008
BCO Bake Sale
October means Halloween, lots of candy, midterms, but it also means Breast Cancer Awareness month.
Thursday, October 2, 2008
Lean back, tilt your head, chin up, now SMILE!
Wednesday, October 1, 2008
Black Slugs & cafe au laits
National Book Festival
On Saturday, September 27th was the National Book Festival on the National Mall. Ashley and I went to see what new books we could purchase, but to no avail we left empty handed. No, we didn't leave empty handed because we had no idea, but rather because the books were too few to select from. It was depressing to see that the Library of Congress (LOC) had only provided one tent of books, more like half a tent. The majority of the books for sale didn't interest any of us and not to mention the enormous line one had to wait in to pay for them. In all the day didn't go to waste because we did a Starbucks tea pit stop then resumed on our way over to Staples to purchase overpriced school supplies. A semi decent day, except for the fact that I was suffering a terrible virus invasion on my system. It wasn't the flu nor a cold, but the doctor said a virus had attacked my body, or so at least it felt that way. It ravaged my body and made me want to sleep for hours on end, perhaps a combination of little sleep, long days and season changes contributed to my body running low on soldiers to protect me from any oncoming viruses or bacterium that might invade me.
Wednesday, September 24, 2008
The Tombs
Saturday, September 20, 2008
Martin's Tavern
Friday, September 19, 2008
Ramadan
Last night, Ash, Cynthia, Amelia and I went to Martin's for dinner and drinks. Carol then joined us later on. It was a good night. Sat around for about 3 hours talking and having a good time together. I love the burgers at Martin's. I still don't know which one is better: Tombs burger or Martin's. I also have a pomegranate mimosa, which was good! Must say it was a good combination of champagne and orange juice, or rather pomegranate. Needless to say I didn't get much work done last night. I felt tired and incapable of staying up to read. Its a good thing I had completed my major linguistics assignment Tuesday night and had also done most of the reading for my CPS course. Well, I'm off, still at work on my lunch. :)
As they say in Espanahh
Hasta luego!
Thursday, September 18, 2008
Half way done
Solidarity
Wednesday, September 17, 2008
El Grito de Dolores
Monday, September 15, 2008
Asignaturas
Sunday, September 14, 2008
Saturday Night @ the Opera
Last night was a fun night out with the girls at the Opera. Target and the Nationals Baseball park were hosting a free showing of the opening night Opera at the Washington Opera House. We watched La Traviata, a very heartwarming tragedy of love in Paris. It was the first opera I had ever seen and I truly enjoyed it. Now I'm looking into potentially another opera in the near future. I had such a great time with Cynthia and Ashley. I'm so glad we all get along so great. It feels almost as if I have known these girls for my entire life, we just click so well together. Now we are planning on going to Atlantic City at the end of the month. That should be lots of fun. Senior year continues to be a blast although full of lots of school work. I can't wait to see how the semester progresses and see what other fun activities we'll be doing. well I'll write another blog in the next few days. Meanwhile, enjoy a few pictures from the Opera. Also I had my first taste of Ben's Chilli on Saturday night, but now my next goal is to visit this DC establishment that is soo well known for its chilli. There's this hilarious sign I saw at the stadium, I hope you find it just as funny as I did. : )
Thursday, September 11, 2008
Third Week
Today is a lovely day. It really is gorgeous. For once its not humid nor too hot, rather its warm, sunny and cool. Here I am sitting in Dalhgren Quad over by the Chapel and it's a soothing effect produce on the soul. Finally, I've gotten around to writing my first blog about my senior year. Its been chaotic these past two first weeks of school. So I'll try to post a blog every week or every 2-3 days. Senior year started off a bit rocky, because I didn't have all of my luggage with me and we had bad news to everyone on campus. A fello Hoya, Terrance Davis, was missing in South African waters for about a week. The authorities presumed him dead, but it wasn't confirmed until about 2 days ago. Its very heart renchign because I knew him, although I wasn't close to him, his presence on campus will be greatly missed. He was always a happy, positive and flamboyant boy. I'm truly blessed to have survived a year abroad with no serious mishaps to me. I still cant believe that he passed away and that our campus will be with one less Hoya. I ask for you and others to keep him and his family in your prayers. I would like the same done for myself if I was in his situation. I guess the only thing now is that he is resting in peace and probably continuing his happy ways up in Heaven.
Senior year is going by fast and hectic. This fall I'm taking six courses about 18 units which is a lot but I keep telling myself that it isn't so bad because most of my courses are lower division. This is what happens when you spend a year abroad and still have requirements to fulfill. My literature courses are easy, slightly boring but nonetheless I love them. I'm really happy that I went to USAL to study literature, I mean you cant beat a place like that in the first place. Yesterday was the study abroad fair and I went and helped for a bit, it was amazing talking about my experience to otehrs who wish to do the same. I personally believe that studying abroad is a living changing event and very good for your soul. I think I'd be the same if I hadn't gone aborad. I learned life skills that I would've never picked up in the States. I really do miss Spain and my Spanish life. Especially mis cafes con leches. The coffee culture there is so much better than here. Its also hard just being thrown into a stressful school environment again, especially after having a year of reading and learning at my own pace. I would love to go back to USAL to get my MA in literature but I think I'm ready to find the place to truly call my home and stay there for a while. I also want to be the kid who gets to move in and have her parents help her. I mean don't get me wrong DC is amazing and I love it, but I would love to have some help too. Well I'll talk about my study abroad experience in another blog .For now I'll stick to the start of senior year.
Last week on Friday was the start of Senior week, or more commonly known on campus as "Senior Dis-Orientation". I went to the keg party thrown by the school with Ashley and Cynthia. This was my first college keg party and it was okay. Not much but stand around and drink awful beer. I knew for what we pay to attend Georgetown youd think that we could at least get some decent beeer. Oh well, can' t complain about free alcohol though. I did have lots of fun with my friends, need to mention that the torrential downpour made it even better! : ) At the end of the night, even though we were wet, sweaty and hot it was worth it. Nothing is best like finishing off the night with a great slice of pizza from Phillys!